11 months, even after all I did for you these while. To think nothing is even worth to make you chase me back..
You claimed that you understood me, but you don’t. What I really wanted at that moment was you trying to cheer me up by:
- Replying quickly to my texts. I wanna talk as much as possible because we can’t talk for the rest of the day.
- Leaving a short, simple and sweet message for me somewhere to read. At least I know that you’ll be thinking and missing me when you’re off to malaysia.
But no, you didn’t do any of these. I know you’ll think I’m kicking up a big fuss cause you’re just going off for a day. But hey, you never know how painful I feel when I don’t get to talk to you just for a day. Maybe you don’t feel the same way.
That is why I always make cards, letters and posts for you to read when we can’t talk. Because I wanna let you know that I’ll be thinking of you. Doesn’t that make you feel so much better?
I was just very upset because I waited so long for the weekends to spend time with you. Even if we cannot spend time together, at least we can text. You know how little we get to text during the weekdays? Maybe all these means nothing to you, but they mean so much to me. That’s why i feel so unhappy whenever i think about how i can’t talk to you for the whole day, and you seem to have no feelings about this. You don’t even tell me you’re gonna miss me while you’re at there. How am I going to feel better like this?
I felt this way and reacted like this all because I love you, and I miss you. But you left me alone feeling at the very worst now, crying to myself and I’ve nobody to talk to except to myself. Thank you so much.
This sucks and it hurts so badly. Perhaps you’ll only know how important my existence is only when I’m gone..
